Rain. A peaceful slow drizzle..can you hear the drops hitting the metal roof you sit under? you can sense the place is old... just an old fashioned barn. Close your eyes, and hear the different sounds... the drip drip of the leak in the loft, the splat splat of the dripping on the sheet iron stacked nearby, and a dull thud each time a drop hits the brim of your hat.... and the soft sound of raindrops on an old barn roof. You wonder how many times someone else has listened to thse same sounds? You can just see bales of hay, that long ago... someone stacked... and used. the old hay hooks still hang in plain sight...with an old hay fork.
it is times like these... that you wish you had that special someone ...that you connect with so well... that would appreciate what you are experiencing... and wonder the same things you are. Its a full moon. and the sky lights up like a flashlight. Your children are grown, and gone to live their own lives, Your dog is gone... and the 10 cats you raised are all gone except blackie. Shes still here., never to far away. The cows are sold, the calves are absent. You hope the rain continues so there will be grass and hay in the future. Sometimes life is like this. Passionate, but lonely. You feel your bones grow alittle older, and ache just alittle more each passing year. How many times have you seen that full moon come and go?
You know there will be hard tiems ahead. your determined to laugh as you live through them. at least alittle. You look forward to the little projects coming up... planting a garden... preparing flowers... things that keep your hands busy, and your mind at peace. It is better to live alone then to live with drama and that nagging woman will soon sound like the dripping but you can tget away from it.
It is good... good that you notice the smiles. .. good that you acknowledge the owl that hoots... the sunset that paints a pretty pciture for you, if only for a few moments, the first star to twinkle... the coyote that yells... and the soft thunder in the distance. Life is good. maybe it is better then you think. Be careful what you pray for... and be aware of the blessings you have today. I have been blessed. I have loved. I have felt love. I have felt happiness, joy and thought I was skipping across the colors of the rainbow ..straight into sunrays from heaven. Such an array of experiences and feelings...
I hope my hat dont leak....hasnt yet.
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