I have followers!! friends!!

OM MY GOSH!!! I have followers!!!! I cant believe it~!~~ After YEARS..... Im not longer invisible!!! SOME one has found the "follow" button!! and all my so called real life friends assured me there was NO button!! ha! take that!! okok to their credit, the FOLLOW button shows up on a desk top, but does not show up on your phone. 

Much to my surprise, when I JUST published the last blog, I saw SEVEN followers.... woo hoooo… and one "X" where there used to be a follower... maybe they died... or probably umm...doesn't affiliate with my political values... or..something. And there was one that even had a picture posted with her! Go cindy!! 

The others are sure I will stalk them. Ive give all that stalking stuff up.... Ive written it before...and ill write it again...just so  your all assured.... I only stalk on Thursdays nights. Please leave blinds cracked. After all if its cold to you outside, its cold to your stalker too. Some hot chocolate outside the window also be nice.

Followers!!!! Where SHALL this exciting new direction take us all????  This could be a whole new thing! Don't worry Ill forget I have any followers...in about 15 minutes, good thing I type fast.
okok thanks for finding the follow button on your desk top!!

ravings of a quarantined man

well not a lot has changed around the ol farm place during the quarantine ! I continue to try to get ahead of things here, so I can achieve the goals I always had, even before this virus thing. So I planted this garden...all the usual stuff... but beforehand, I had to prep the ground. Tilling, weedraking, , and putting manure in the soil.... me and lil chasen planted it... and he helped put some seed into the ground. Then it came a big rain.... like a flood... for about 4 days. All garden gone. poof. It was something.....the raised garden part is maybe ok...idk yet... But im like in rubber boots.... soo...

As the whole place was drying up, which took another 5 days of wind and warmer weather, I decided to do another job.. and set those pipe pieces I cut, and get them in the ground to stretch fence from. So I got the auger at last hooked up on the tractor. Now I don't remember that auger taking an hour and that much energy from me to hook up before. But by golly I got it on there. It drags a tad, but it works. I dug the holes and set those posts and bam. I stepped back to look at it, and it was so crooked and out of line I seriously thought maybe Id had a stroke in the process. Cuz there is no way a sober sane man could do something that out of line, and make it look so bad.  I just cried alittle… just a little, and re evaluated my physical health.... now doing really bad work is not a characteristic of the virus.... and I was not drunk although you couldn't tell it by job I just completed, so im thinking stroke. I mustve stroked out, and kept working.... seemed the only answer.... I swear it was so bad, I just went to the house.... and the next day, when I was sure my eyes were the same size, and I could wipe my butt with either and and not trip walking down the hall, (which Im sure ARE signs of stroke) then I went back outside and pulled up the pipe. ugh. Now I figure when I find my string, Ill stretch some string, and dig those holes perfect (like I ever did a perfect thing in my life) and reset the posts.

so ...yesterday... it was dry enough. I retilled and the wife helped me plant.. I used string then too. ha. semi straight rows... cept the green beans... I kinda didn't have any, so I have a blank row to plant asap! RIght now they are invisible beans. Sorta like magic beans... OMG... that Jack kid that planted magic beans...they were beans too!!  But this is like... my real life...not some silly story your reading about on a..... say.... blog. or book. Ill get to the bean store and get some and make that right soon!

so today...one day after the replanting... its pouring down rain. If it doesn't let up soon, Ill be planting yet a 3 rd garden.... So that's why im sitting here typing... its raining, im quarantined, and Im tired of watching vampire diaries. I never knew that if you saw just one vampire, that there would be so many show up soon thereafter!! and the werewolves...oh my... lions tigers and bears... no wait. never mind.

so..I did dishes, I took my medicine, I let the dogs out, and its 3 pm. I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow.

so...I need to break out my bible, and see If God maybes gonna come before ...idk...we all die from some mysterious disease. Then, maybe the wife will find an excuse to come home, and I can get on her last nerve before she goes to work again tomorrow. And this is Monday.....ugh. 

I think I still have grand children... but I cant see them up close.... I think Im starting to hallucinate, as I am sure I saw a road grader on MY road....and I know that cant be true. I haven't seen one on my road since about 2006. And of course any good he did was lost, as it is RAINING yet once again. Im not complaining... I lived thru the drought a few years ago.... Let it rain. I have 4wd.! and the auger probably digs easier in the mud.  The calves had just now re evolooted back to like regular cows, now that the rain returned,  Im sure they have the quack feet back now. They don't know whether to swim and look for fish, or try to stumble waddle to a wet hay pile.

Quarantine.... almost sounds like a womans name. I think Ill write a C&W song about her....Ill get Glen Campble to sing it to the tune of "Galveston". well...cept hes dead.  okok Kenny Rogers to the tune of....wait. nevermind.

Im about to expel all of my wisdom for this time period...unless I get Moe bored …. so this must end! On a more serious note, I hope and pray for my country, my family, and my friends... as the people without a shred of common sense are as we speak/type, IN Walmart buying God knows what...and shaking each others hands, and going about their day to day business. If I go crazy and they don't die, Im gonna be mad. wait... ugh. nevermind again.

Quarantine ohhhhh quarantine.....

troubling times.

well its pandemic virus time in America. these are historical times. Theres a lot of fear, and uncertainty going on in the country just now.  Funny how the first thing people did was stampede the stores and hoard all the toilet paper. lol. that's right....tp. Then finally, they decided to get food, and bottled water. I still cant figure why drinking water from a bottle is acceptable. I mean... a bottle you pay money for!  And then theres the baby formula hoarders. the ones that buy up the formula, but they don't even have babies! What are they thinking? maybe they suddenly think they want to drink a bottle? Maybe they think if worse comes to worse, hunkered down here in this underground bunker, being real quiet, that they can just drink some baby formula, and everything will be alright. idk?

So I planted a garden. I have 3 raised garden beds, and then I tilled a spot for squash, etc. It took some doing, as it was a solo project. I finally got it all planted. Then the March Rain opened the flood gates, and now I am sure it is washed away. Im hoping the mud will soon be replaced by good soil again, and I can till and replant soon. We had some 80 degree days, but as usual, the Oklahoma hell freak weather devil, just teased with it, and now its COLD and wet and GRAY again!! ugh..

the world sure has become an uncertain place. I wonder what happened to days when the biggest concern was what was on tv? No real worries... except the ones we created. Maybe someday, that time will return.....ya think?

So the yard, the pasture, the whole county, is under water yet once again. I saw a calf of mine that had duck feet. It was  having a problem getting milk from momma, and walking on dry land. But it pedals pretty good. the mom moo moos, but the calf, mow quacks. The chickens....they are quite adaptive too.  They don't much like the water, but they've become barn roof chickens. Im thinkin of putting the feeder up there...but id have to climb a ladder every time  I fed em….if it keeps raining, there'll soon be fish in yard. They can fish for em. I hope the calves don't start eating fish!

Im getting hungry...so I ask on FB, is Polos open? I immediately get a pm chewing me out. Daughter says STAY HOME. lol. Im holed up here like a survivor….so Im hoping I do... it wo uld suck knowing I deprived myself of some good Mexican food and died anyway. lol. So the President was on tv.... saying were going to use a drug, but not sure if itll work. Then, some reporter starts in sensualizing the fear, and Trump nails him. lol. Said he should be ashamed of himself. lol.

anyway..... looks like Im having breakfast bisquits….
later folks.

later WW! time, winter, and common sense.

Im amazed at how fast time has flown by! I used to hear my ol grandma say this kind of thing. I remember thinking no way...an hour is an hour. time is time. But I swear she was right! Its already mid February! We did the new years thing, and the valentines thing... and the year is already passing so quickly! I went from a brown haired young stud, to a silver haired...old stud. Im really amazed at this time passing thing. My friends are starting to die.....and Im not even 60 yet. Im trying to use that number so I can get used to the sound of it. I told kt, Im going to start saying "sexy 60", She said, no. just don't dad. just ...no. lol.

Its another long wet gray winter, just like I predicted it would be. Im constantly reminded of all the things I have yet to do.... I did work on some pipe fencing... its something Im not very good at. I always think how Ill do it, and then when I actually start doing it, I think..."what was I thinking". a 2 hour task is all day. Just how old am I?? sigh.

Yesterday was nearly 70 deg, and 2 days from now they say maybe snow. My life is a lot like Oklahoma weather.... its here, its there, and when it happens , its doesn't hit as hard as its supposed to. And when it does, it takes 2 weeks to get over it.

the political campaigning is ramping up again.... Im again, amazed at the lack of judgement in some of these partys. ok the democratic party, although the republican party is far from perfect too. I wish someone would form a Common Sense Party. Id strive to be a member of that. I swear some of these guys would operate like a guy wearing flip flops in a cow lot. just makes no sense.

Im taking this moment to say goodbye to an old friend of mine. WW passed a couple days ago. we have a funeral on Saturday. I had a lot of fun with you WW! Ill see you again someday!

dinner, propane tanks and kittens

hello imaginary readers. its nice to check in again. The crockpot food attempt was successful. I have another one (diff recipie) on now ready to eat when my  bride gets home. I know her day is long sometimes. on the other hand, I worked at my own pace today. Im alittle disappointed that I didn't get as much done as I planned. It appears that im OLDER....than I am inside my head... you know … the place where I plan the day out...and decide that I can do that...or that...and this.... but ahem.

So I like saying that working at my own pace is a good idea. I still have the todo list to do. Its just getting done a tad bit slower than I planed inside my young brain.

today was paint the propane tank day. Kiltz can over any dang thing right? And I did...or will, when I apply the 142nd coat of it on there. That tank painting is harder than I thought it would be. you know that round thing... is hard on a roller, and my hands, and my back. I don't remember things being quite that painful a few years ago.

I also acquired a couple of new storm doors at the HD place...and I thought I was gonna cry before got to the patio with them. I hung a pair of doors almost like them all by myself...and it never occurred to me that I couldn't do it again. okok so it was 10 years ago...but hey they are doors. they are heavy doors. Doors that were not nearly as heavy 10 years ago. what is tarnation is a going on here??? geesh. I gottem there. But man. I even got one out of the box. maybe Ill sneak up on hanging one. or maybe even both. who knows. oh heck Ill probably call a door guy to do it for me but Im going to try one anyway.

I received 2 baby kittys due to my wonderful daughter kt today. They are bottle fed. I discovered that the nipples on these new bottles have NO holes in them. whod a thought? and everytime  I made a hole it would close up and nothing would get thru it. no problem though.... they will lap it up out of the little pan if you hold their little heads down in it. they cough alittle….but they drink it. so... I guess Im the animal whisperer. yeah that's it. drink it or drown. maybe they will live. Im really not sure. they are tiny. I figure they have a 50-50 shot at it. they also will shut up all that meowing if you put them in a box and cover them up with a towel. if they get out of that... a piece of plywood on top the box is perfect.  I think I have this system down.

well that's about all Ive got for now. tomorrow I will continue this new retired life...did I mention that? and see what projects I can actually get done now. Im still up in the air about the gardening boxes...…

Chef Sundance

ok... im sorry I didn't really have much time to type before. Im sure that no one is left that reads this stuff I write...but it kinda helps me keep some sanity ...whats left that is. I think I have updated this... but sometimes I have to update myself...so its as much for me as it is for yall…. all yall imaginary folk!

In a nut shell, Ive returned to the old farm house and country living. Elvis the rooster has long left the building...but guess what.... I have a new set of chickens, and a big old rooster named Duke. yep, big duke is a barred rock black and white checker kinda of guy, and his girls have just started laying ! I only eat eggs on weekends now, and having 11 hens will far exceed my egg menu for the weekends! Im thankful to God and to my bride that chose to follow me here. I know it was hard for her, and I spent a bout a year countrytizing her on weekends...til she decided she wanted to be a country girl too. She kills me every chance she gets for taking silly pics of her in shorts and boots...and all the clothes she used to make fun of country folk (me) for wearing....but shes learned you do what works for you.

 Shes a great help and even better a great cook.! that brings in my next thoughts.... I have to learn to cook some things... Ive recently retired again... and what shall I do now?? besides sit o nthis thing and type nonsense.... well I shall have dinner prepped. Now I had a great plan... I had 39 crockpot recipies sent to me... man ! and they have videos showing you what to do! So I went out today, and got all the ingredients! And I was just going to start this show up ...but I had to take the time to go ba\ck out to the truck to get the brisket out of the truck...because I forgot it all in the front seat. Hey the console hid it! so I here I was...about ready...when I pulled out my phone and the recipies are gone! and the video how to do it was too!! ugh!!!! So I came to the keyboard to vent abit… maybe some slight whining... how does that happen????? ugh.  

I thought I better add one picture at least of ME working, cuz everybody thinks she does all the work!but she doesn't do it all! I swear it! So anyway, now I have to try to find someone that will coach me through all this prep thing..... I think I sear this meat..... and then put into a crock pot... hmmmmm to bad NO ONE reads this...or I might could get some advice!!! I hate asking for help...I wanted to be so independent and do this on my own!!! wheres my video!! Im going to go look for this maybe they have a website! hmmmmmmmm

a new start and shed doors lock

Well im writing today because today is the first day of a new beginning for me. A new chapter so to speak. Its Monday, and Im not going off to work. Ive retired once more, and Im on a venture to do things at home to make life easier for pam.

Ive fixed a few things around here in the last few months since we moved in....now that Im back at the farm with my bride, I saw many things that needed to be redone. or just fixed. We have windows on order, and a roof coming.

The other day, alone at the farm, I decided to go to the shed and get the heavy pumpkin out and place it on th efront porch.... the cold front had come, and the wind was howling! I went out to the shed and saw 3 young boys riding a jack ass down the dirt road in front of my house. Im my mind I thought, those stupid kids... lol. at least they are having fun. Then the wind blew, and the door slammed shut leaving me inside the storage building in the dark. I then discovered that the new door latch I installed works really well when the wind blows the door shut. I could either tear the door up, and re fix it, or wait on pam. Well. I waited and the door finally opened with pam and katy filming me for a new FB video. ugh. They said I had it coming.... but I totally disagreed with that.

So I need to fix that door thing. I need to go attempt to fix this dinner.....wish me luck.

you know...sometimes I type, not knowing if I will publish it or not on this thing. Sometimes it just helps me to get my thoughts out. Im sitting here feeling pretty low. I start thinking about other people and when they felt this way. I think about Christ, in the garden.... he was pretty low. The son of God, struggling with His life...and what He had to go through. I guess its ok if I fret alittle over what Im in.

sigh. I wish I had the answers I seek. but even if I did, I might not like them, and I might just continue my course anyway.

maybe Ill just sit on this one....add to it later.

falling forwardly,
me

Well....its a new time. a new day so to speak. the pages have turned... and my life is a shade better. Im about to end another chapter of my life and begin a brand new one.... a new direction. Im excited...  as I read the above portion that I typed before,  I see I was pretty down. Life does this.... like waves. up and down. just gotta ride it out. enjoy the up times.... get thru the down ones.

Today I drove the mule while my grandson steered. I noticed the weeds ...so many....so ugly... then he laughed. I drove my wife and two dogs around later... and we enjoyed the sunset. How bad can life be for me? I get tired a lot.... much faster and easier than I used to. this really is frustrating to me... but I guess I can adjust.

I had breakfast this am. coffee. eggs and biscuts. I even had jelly. man it was good. how bad can life be? I tried mowing some weeds down...as they bothered me so much. I wish I treated for weeds...but its too late now. so I got the mower out and mowed some in the pasture. I noticed lots of burmuda under those weeds. looks pretty good. and it rained last night. and I slept thru it all....
how bad can life be?

I went over the bills...and talked to p about it.... we make plenty of money.... theres no use in working your life away at this age....if you make plenty of money. Its time to slow down and enjoy what you've always wanted to enjoy all of your life. Lets make life a Friday..... everyday. How bad can life be?

I pray God will allow me to live in good health....and enjoy this upcoming chapter.

how bad

can life be?

life and time....

Life.... and the passage of it. Seems like Im th inking more and more about this kind of thing. Seems to me it has a few critical points:

How you see it. How you receive it. How much time you get in it, or have left in it.  I read somewhere, that David didn't see how big Goliath was, instead he saw how easily Goliath was to hit with his rock. So...Perspective is everything and change the way you live, and react...

which is the next point, how you receive it. In most things you can decide how your reacting to it. You can decide if your going to receive Gods blessings, or not. Choosing to receive them means  you must be completely surrendered to Him...(which affects your perspective).

By the time I figured this out, I was concerned about the 3 rd point.... my time in it, and time left. Ive watched people age, and Ive noticed how the animals age. Seems everything in the world ages. They say there are some turtles that are 150 years old, but they age too. I wonder what you do during 150 years? hmmmm. Ive noticed the little baby chicks are so small and cute. but they grow quickly!  They change....then they die. Seems kinda pointless. but that appears to be the long and short of it.

So… with the amount of time I project I have left on earth, I have decided Im not going to get all my projects done. lol. I hate exiting, leaving things undone. Heck Im not even wise enough to know who all I oughta apologize to, and who I have actually had a positive impact on. oh well. Move forward and call it good. Unless a big ol pile of wisdom hits me between the eyes or something.  I thought Id give God the opportunity to allow me to finish out with LOTS of money, so I bought a lottery ticket... now I know HE doesn't need me to buy one to bless me, but I thought hey... ill jiggle the door.... maybe itll open. I bought the big one...you know...the power ball thingy. $3. so I waited, and checked on it. and I won! yep. I won $4. oh yah. I forgot to cash that in.

So what do you do? I guess try to learn more...so I can help myself and others... its better than just sitting down and getting fat, and watching tv...expecting the govtmt to provide me with food on my table. I think Ill just buy my own food with my own pay check that I earn. Call me old fashioned.  Now id love to "draw a check", but I don't want to be disabled to do it. lol.

Anyway....I better go. I have lots to do today.

when the shoe drops

I thought about you. I thought about God. Ive thought about my dreams, and goals. Ive talked to you and God about them both. Sometimes I just wonder if laying down and just letting go of everything wouldn't be better. But then I think about quitting, and my children, and grandchildren.
sigh.

im tired. sometimes I guess life is just.....tiring. it seeps into your bones, into your mind, into your very spirit. not even the chocolate that Im not supposed to have helps.

So I pray. I blog. I listen to the thunder. Its soothing. the rain is more fierce than Id like it to be.... how about a nice soft drizzle. It always feels like some kind of unseen invisible fabric is about to rip apart when it rains like that.

im not sure where im standing at these days. I wish it was as easy as looking down to see where. Just when you think you know,  you find out that the sound you heard was you tripping over something and splatting on the ground. tomorrow is another 12 hour work day. all I can say is …. im tired. things are good, then you look up,.... and its like.....when the other shoe drops....and everything comes to a halt. And hearing whats being said to you, sounds like a foreign language. 

Lord help me to know where Im at, where Im going, and where you want me to be.  

im back !! with internet!!!

well it has been a long road. things have changed so much in the last 10 years. I didn't know I would age so much during that time. lol. I guess I thought I would stay young even pushing 60.  So many things now I cannot do, or have to do differently. I just finished roofing the shed, and wished Id don't it differently now. But its done. I hope it doesn't leak. I don't remember bundles of shingles weighing that much! Im finally back home on the farm after getting married and being away for 5 long years. All I wanted was to share this place with someone special. And it finally happened. SHE came with me. I really doubted if she would, but she did! wow. Im still amazed.

and im amazed this site can now see all the pics my phone takes!! I better be careful there! lol. I have missed this peaceful setting. Note the yard is in terrible shape.  its been such a rainy wet underwater type of year. 

Im setting here in my OFFICE, with a desk and my computer!! woo hoooo!!! and I intend on updating everything since I have internet here at the farm now!! about time AT&T!! Its been a long time coming home. A lot of things I used to do without thinking now requires some planning. I have to remember how to hook up a trailer. lol. how to do certain things with the tractor. ITs coming back to me, but I have to think about it.

as one grows older, and is constantly reminded of aging and amazed at the changes in life that happen due to it, its nice to have help. something I would have never never accepted 10 years ago. Maybe my pride has taken a back door to my ummm muscles. 

I thank God for the peace I can now sometimes find in this place. For returning me back home with a bride that is sharing it with me. I pray now that she loves it here as much as I do. I hope that He will give me many good years of good health, and TIME to do the things I want to do so bad. now that I have my computer going again, and an OFFICE...with a desk...lol.. and internet here.... I plan to blog abit more.. share my thoughts some.. Im sure no body reads this mess as I don't advertise it much, or at all, lol. but It does help me to get my thoughts out, and maybe organize my goals a tad. 

I still wonder about that tumbleweed.... maybe she  will read me now and then. I hope if anyone does read this, they would make a comment so Ill know someone out there is …...well....there. lol.

Im sneaking up on learning to band calves, and I have a calf gate Ive never used  yet. soooo... that might turn out to be blog worthy. lol. Ill let you know....until then.... 

Later silly world.

weeds are like people.

Finally got back to this page. Took me a minute. lol. Well its 2018, and so many things are goin on. The kids are moving into a new home on my property. They now have 5 acres, and a new home. That son in law may be a quiet moody one, but he aint lazy. He works like a ...well...nevermind… but hes already got the water dug and put in. That daughter and grandson just make my day, everytime they smile !

So theres a new little black kitty at the farm... so far hes smart enough not to get squished by a truck, mule or tractor. I had my doubts, but hes faster than his scrawny body looks.

Today I spent many hours on a tractor brush hoggin… while I was on it, I was thinking, how many times have I done this...and saw the rabbits scurrying, and the red hawks swooping...lol... poor bunnies. Run rabbit run!! I was also thinking maybe im getting older, because it was hard to stay on the tractor that long. It was hot, and my allergies were killing me, and something stung me on the cheek. Well im calling it a sting.... maybe it bit. Does it matter what end of its little bug/bee body was used?  I started seeing myself in a cab tractor...with AC...and tinted windows.... oh yeah. and a radio. woo hoooo… Then I woke up and got back on the grass line....

Theres a lot of good grass under all those weeds. I just need to provide an environment where itll grow, and the weeds wont. But its there. Kinda like people. Too many weeds, not enough good grass. Theres pretty weeds with pretty blooms, and solid good grass with no blooms... but ones a weed, and one is good grass. Makes ya think. I need more time on the porch so I can finish these kinds of thoughts. lol.

So far this weekend, Ive felt joy, saw smiles, had good surprises, saw pretty sky lines, and I have good hopeful expectations....of rain, thunder, baby calves, and I cant say what else... lol. ...But its good. So  many bills, and so few checks....man...if only I could be in charge of how many checks and bills I get....(don't say it)

Plan your work, and work your plan.

this is what Im talking about...Life is pretty...if your looking for pretty...and expecting pretty...Isnt that a scripture? My prayer is that God will send peace...a special peace.....and a buyer for this home, so we can move back to our country home. No room for chaos, or ...well...chaos. just no room. 

I try to avoid misunderstandings... not sweat the small stuff, and always make time for a sunset. How many more of those do I have left?

Wonder whatever happened to that tumbleweed? You still out there tumbleweed?

So… steer straight, and getter done. 

2017.... like a bitin pig.

Well its the end of another year. pam and I were talking about the things that happened this year. It was a tough year. I remember saying the same thing last year. and the year before. I wonder if other people say the that too? I'm about ready for a really HUGE GREAT year! lol. Hello world?? are yall out there?? Do yall say that?? is every year seem a tad tougher?  I ll win the lottery and and have an easy easy year. ummm I better buy a ticket I guess. that's what its called right? a ticket?

Anyway, just a few things in passing, that tiny little incident in May, wherein they say I had a heart attack. Got to fly on a helicopter. Yep. A $46,000.00 helicopter ride. It was a tad cramped in there... as I was laying down on this little board, obviously made for a skinny little man. Probably back when men were skinny, say , in the 1920s or something. The barf bag came in handy too. And the service was a tad unfriendly. they didn't offer me anything , cept morphine. Thus the bag.
And then that brother of mine, decided to up and die on me. He wasn't much for phone calls and such anyway... but Id of liked to seen him a few more times anyway. He was always funny. So much for the smoking. Then Pams uncle, whos church I attended as a teenager...died.  There were some other things too. We did a few things to the house here, and to the "tiny house".

I think as you go onward, because you dang sure cant go backwards, and theres no since in living there.... you have to remember the other things. The ones that give you hope. bring you smiles. Even a sad smile is better then none. I think so anyway. and laughter...? who does that anymore? well I guess I'm doing it more then I used to. that woman I live with seems to laugh so easily. Maybe there are still some things I can learn from her. Imagine that. Things I can learn. If I'm not too hard headed. I seem to be my own worse enemy. that word correction thingy would say enema. but I learned about that...the hard way. ha. Remembering special things... I define special things as things you feel more then see, as things that make you connect...they have no value to a lost world. Just to me. Sunsets rate highly on my list of those things. Seeing a dog doing something silly, watching Chasen grin. simple things. Not watching the world go by, but seeing it... seeing it like I was meant to see it.  I hope I can see that more and more. Thing important things... like red birds, smiles, baby laughter, chocolate, the sparkle in ones eyes, and of course sunsets.... those are only a few things. I wonder what other people see or if anyone even knows what the crap I'm talking about?

So... with no guarantees of tomorrow... just one single promise, that when I die Ill live in a special place prepared just for me. That there is a life...a forever one... after this one. Maybe theres a lot of redbirds and sunsets there. .. and they wanted me to learn to see them. maybe. .. I guess that's enough. .. so ill just face 2017 the way I have faced each year all my life. Like a bitin pig. Charge in there... give it hell. Lets not live in fear. Its not my way. Lets charge it.... But help me God. If it turns out to be a year of complete blessings.... Ill be good. If its one like I just went through....well...Ill be good.

whats comin next??

 

I was walking by and saw this rooster on top the dog pen. Now the dog and the rooster are good buddies. Sometimes they even sleep together. I know right... but they do. I can never hate the sound of a rooster crowing. Sounds like music to my ears. Unless he stands by the back door and screams his head off.  I was thinkin..."what in the world are you doing up there"? Then I wondered what I might see if I was a rooster on a dog pen. I guess Id see things a tad differently. Like.... hey you have a bald spot on your head....or....whew...that breeze went right up my feathers...

I ve been working on the "tiny house" for way to long now. almost a year. I sorely underestimated that project! the wife started calling my small living quarters I'm building in the new shop, the "tiny house". It has a small bathroom, and its 7ft x 25 ft. I learned a lot about what NOT to do when building something like this. you know...little things... like putting the rafters dead center. seems those few inches are really important. My life is like that I guess. ugh. The things I didn't think so much of sometimes turns out to be very important. geesh. Somebody (up there) that's in charge, needs to cut me some slack! (lightning bolt!!).  I suppose its what your thinking, and how you think it when you. Like the rooster....(bald head thoughts or breezy feather thoughts) does.

Someday Ill have this silly thing done... and then I can move on to the next project. yeah. I am still trying to get on here more often, but regular life and work keeps me so busy I can hardly do it anymore. But I'm learning to grab photos from google and my phone backs its pics in google. so .  I'm kinda boring tonight..so not a lot to say. I went to work today, but only made a couple hours then my stomach started cramping. crap.. it hurt all  day long. I came home did the runny run runs a bit, and then crashed on the bed all day.  I ate crackers all day. ugh. no wait, I had a can of chicken n noodles when my lovely bride came home for lunch. bless her little heart. I'm glad I now have a help mate that will do that for me. I used to just lay in the floor at home.... no one knew the difference.  This marriage thing has been challenging to say the least... oh hell, its been freakin hard.  The first two years I nearly killed us both daily. Now its once a month, and I learned to roll with her punches.  There was a lot of "growth", which is code for yelling kickin and screamin. But its settling down now. Itll be 3 years now come jan 1.  Things have changed ....I had a grandson, a heart attack, and who knows what else ... I guess God knows whats comin next.

pictures finally!

Finally. I figured out how to load stupid pictures on this stupid blog. That's what results from time to myself. lol. Good things are sprinkled within the many other not so good things that rain down on a mans life. I remember the quote " there are worse things than dying".  I wondered about that when I saw the pearly gates. ok I didn't really see them. So here I am with my grandson.... hes quite a chunk, but I didn't have to lift him. He just sat there. and I soaked that little bit of good right up. Then I got my shot in the stomach. yes it left a mark.

a weekend of adventure!!!

well ive been alittle out of pocket lately. Seems this business that life gives you kinda takes over and first thing you know, you don't do anything but hurry to this or that and go to work. Maybe that's what vacations are for....or heart attacks...

okok so im 55, and in great shape, and just passed with flying colors, the heart check up, and tread mill test and all of that. I walk an average of 12k steps per day, not counting the steps, stairs, and ladders I climb. Part of my average work day may be spent on a roof top, or on my knees. But despite my physical work life, my rugged outdoorsyness, and super hero aura, I actually had a heart attack last sunday. I know right?? It was very painful, and I apparently am quite funny while high on morphine. In the ER room, I told the 5 nurses working on me, that it was every mans dream to have 5 women take his pants off...which they were doing. I also told them not to cut my GOOD work paints off of me... I must say the helicopter ride is over rated, and probably way to expensive, as the little horizontal "sleeper" they placed me in with the 6 point harness was not very comfy. not to mention barfing to do the amount of morphine they gave me. Anyway, an hour later, I had 2 stints in and surgery was over, and I was in the room. My main nurse, "Crystal" was absolutely perfect! I told her before she gave me shots in the stomach...(not rabies!) she should bring 2 needles, cuz Id probably bend the first one with my abs of steel. many nurses laughed at this statement.... I didn't think it was THAT funny... Thank you Oklahoma Heart Hospital, and Crystal.!

So I have some extra time on my hands as Im not allowed to go back to work just yet. So nearly dying...well I always wondered what itd be like to do that. you know, like..how Id react to it...I found out. ha. I asked God to just take me, as I was ready, mostly due to the pain. I guess that was kinda chicken hearted to say, but anyway, He made me live another day. Im not sure why, but I can just guess I have something or things yet undone. 

So I have my to do list here....vacuum, home depot, etc. Wait... housework will be working ...and that is not allowed per drs orders! Today I intend to get out of this house though! Even if it kills me! lol. So have you wondered what your last day on earth would be like? Mine would have been nice... nice weather, mowing the yard, being productive... I remember I was ready to go. I wonder if the reader of this blog is? Seems the best a man can do, is to be productive, and enjoy as much of the day as what it brings, and not worry much about tomorrow. Just keep going I guess. The pace will change as I age, or so my knees tell me. But notice the sunshine, or something good... like grandchildren, pretty women, I don't know...sports cars. lol. okok... grand kids... laughter...

I am trying to figure out how to put more pics on this thing...but I only could do it once.....

just a little update on the tiny house.

I may have mentioned this before...but I have a "tiny house " project. you see, I built this shop, its a 25x25 shop.,, and I decided to build a living quarters in it. Its really a nice "dog house". I figure when this woman frustrates the crap out of me, I can retreat to it, and feel the peace of the country. That peace has healed me before...sooo.. but I had NO idea that this tiny house project would be so demanding ....and HARD... omg. I can no longer get on my knees and spring right back up to get something..I now have to crawl over to something and pull myself up with it. Reminds me of when my aunt Reba would bend over to get a tooth that fell out of her head, and then couldn't get back up.

As soon as I can remember how to get more pics off my phone and onto this ...I ll post a few pics of what Im doing here. So today I checked the garden, and I worked with a hired friend to do the bathroom. We worked ont he shower a lot...but its still not finished. I swear Ive put so much money in this, and so much time, I think I may self destruct!

The wind nearly blew me away, I painted my fingers red, but I didn't cut anything off. Next trip Ill hope to finish the shower, and maybe be ready to put sheet rock up. I guess there are things in life that you just underestimate, but ... if you stay with it, you get it done. God Help me.... were going to get this done together!

(Hi Jenner!)

walks, movies, dinner! its date night for oldies!

date night! its so exciting.... it happens every Friday night. When we were dating, I so looked forward to date night.! I was determined to continue the excitement, and continue date night on Friday nights when possible. Tonight , our choices were to take a walk around the park, have a campfire, roast some wieners, and watch netflex, or go and eat, and make a movie. I looked on the movie menu and decided our option would be Batman vs Superman. My wifes favorite kind of flick. uh huh.

this is where the fun began! We decided at the last moment to take Scout, our faith ful little dog. He was excited for the first little hitch of the walk, then pam decided to take the long route instead of the short one, and me and Scout started limping. Ok I limped. But he breathed real hard. That's when pam remembered that I had a blister on my little toe from walking so much at work. and I picked cotton while I did it too. just like when we were kids walking to school. but that is another story. So l finished the walk with bloody feet. and then we decided to come home and get ready for the movie.



Pam was all dressed up,  and I changed shirts, but kinda forgot to change pants and work boots (which I walked around the park in) and it was pointed out that my jeans had bleached out places in them...and btw why didn't I dress up too? oops.  So we made the movie. Got there early. The ticket guy was amused when we realized "someone" had the wrong movie time. oops! so pam whipped out her popcorn box that was refillable when he told her that it was only refillable on that day..only. Wrong box for the "anytime refill". Oops!. There went dinner. ugh. so... we walked to Hastings, and rented a movie. I checked to make sure the right movie was in it! We ordered bean burritos with hot sauce and got bean burritos with hardly any beans in it. with mild sauce.  ugh.

Ok...so sore feet walking, no movie, no popcorn, cold burritos, ... now lets take a crack at this rented movie and see if we can make it to the bed without sleeping on the remote that changes bed positions that wakes us up in the sitting position. oops.

ok...I just discovered I cant get the ps3 to work so I cant play the blu ray disc. Maybe tomorrow will be better.

Gardening, working, and pain.

Well, the kids popped off about wanting a garden... and how it would be healthy, and all that savings stuff. And about that time, the wife decided to go on a diet. Sooo... we decided we would "put in a garden" last Saturday. Im only now getting to type about it, because I was too sore to type. So our blessed son in law did the roto tilling...sorta... and threw some seeds down on the ground. I guess he wanted to be sure he got some squash and corn. Of course we offered to let him take part, but he said.. "nope. Im good." and...."who would want to till that again"?.. so I guess his taste of gardening was satisfied.

After we planted and planted, and planted... and were somewhat delirious.. (where did those little plants go? did we ;plant them already? No...I thought you had them...{we left them at home} noo... I thought YOU had them...) we had to help each other up. We make a lot more noise now, when we get up off our knees. Then the watering thing.... and of course we accidently get wet and the rouge sprinkler attacks. I warned her. Maybe she'll believe me now.

After the 2nd day...yes...it took 2 days... we thru our hands up and said "were done"... and hope the kids will water the stupid thing. you see, the kids live there on the premises, and can actually turn the knob and start the water sprinkler. I hope they understand that they may have to move it to get the whole garden covered.  So... that night...it was Aleeve, turn the massage bed on, (I had a pocket full of quarters!) and we passed out! the next day, we fell out of bed. I was thinking...we better have a decent garden.! The garden work knocked me out of checking the bees, which Im worried about, as I wanted to try to harvest honey next month! I was going to give them a good pep talk. Except for the "ninja attack bees".. I was just going to sing songs about Jesus around them. Maybe play a violin. Promote peace. I think I need a bee suit that looks like a bear. Maybe they would be nicer then. Ill check them all next weekend...which now is like...3 days. ugh.

I worked on the roof of married housing all day today. I mean ALL day. but I had my trusty ear nubs, and listened to some good ol classic music. some country , some rock. Until I saw a group of kids filming me I think...I guess I was dancing alittle too much. Those iphone ear thingys are amazing! I hope I don't turn up on Youtube... cuz I was not graceful in that high wind doing the Elvis leg jig to my tunes.

The wife decided shed hide out in a "budget meeting"  until around 730 pm tonight... it started around 330 pm. Geesh how long can one talk about numbers?  Maybe we can watch the last episode of Dr. Joie Hart tonight... Its kinda of sad. They didn't renew it I think. And its still not fall, so...no Longmire. Surely we can find something interesting on Netflex until then! Its my job to find that "filler"show until the real stuff we wanna watch shows up in September.

Well I guess Ive rambled enough now. Ill drift to another task, as long as I can do it on my buttocks. Im tired!

The Process.

the process. it takes a while to get your head around it. this whole thing we call life... and the process of aging. I remember when I was young,.. I used to see older people... and I thought, poor guy, he is so old. I didn't really  have the time to "do" old. and although I was polite.... I really didn't see them as that important. I knew of course that they were young once, but I never stopped to think just who were they...back when they were young. when they were my age. and now....

and now, I get that look from other  younger people. I remember that look. I am quickly dismissed. Although in my mind, I am still young... I am still strong, in their eyes, I am old. I am not so important. They don't wonder who I am, or who I was. The experiences I had, the lives I touched, the things I stood for, all.... almost as though they never happened. Almost. Once in a great while, someone from the past greets me, and talks to me about something I did or said that affected them.

Then poof. I am a grandpa. Ive heard that term for so long. for many years. Its an old man term. But I am so proud.. to actually BE one. Now I have what I consider to be my grandson...my step grandson, little Noah... hes 3 years old. And he is the perfect little fella... but this time I want to talk about Little Chasen Wade. Yes I thought he should've been Chasen Andrew, but oh well. Its the end of the line for McKinzies. No more family name of Andrew. No more McKinzies. Im proud to have had two such wonderful daughters...but alas they will both someday undoubtedly be married and take a new name. So ...not even an "Andrew". sigh. oh well. But I will embrace this aging thing.... for what else can I do? I must think and feel many of the things the "oldies" of my youth, that I used to observe, thought and felt.

Then I look into my grandsons eyes.

I wonder how those "oldies" felt and thought, when they looked into their first grandsons eyes for the first time?

YOu know...today I climbed 3 flights of stairs about 6 times. I feel very blessed to of been able to do this, as it is just a small part of what I do at work. I spent a lot of time on top of a building. More climbing. Those old AC units are so demanding I swear.  Sometimes I think my left knee will just blow up...and sometimes I think its my right one. lol. I figure Ill just bee bop along, and when something on me goes *bangboom* then it will.  I guess "they" felt that way too. and every student at that university looks at me for a split second, and disappears into themselves.... just like I did so many years ago.

I wonder what the sunset looked like tonight? I wonder what I am missing...? I want to experience everything....and not miss a thing. Im hungry to .....yeah I guess they felt that way too.

Hello Chasen....

Battle of the Frankenstein bees: Revenge of the Monster bees.

once upon a time there was a man who decided to move 2 hives....of Frankenstein bees. These bees were undoubtedly created when lightning struck some bees in hell, and they came to life in our world, with some demented voice yelling "theyre alive...theyre alive!"

well the man had a plan...he would suit up and sneak up on the hives and close the entrances, trapping the demonic insects inside, and then strap the tops down thus securing the hives on the stand they were on. Then he would move them with the tractors front end loader and drive them to the new location. He would then remove the barriers in the entrances and place a barrier like leaves in the entrance so the bees would pause upon exiting to get their bearings. good plan.

So.. he sneaks. he forgot the to plug up the entrances. outpouring of monster bees. calmly he maintains his pose and straps the belts across each top, only after having to rethread the straps cuz he pulled them apart accidently. finally. secured. bees are tapping his suit all over like a machine gun.  yes a machine gun. did I mention Frankenstein bees? but much faster. If Frankenstein had wings Hed be very very fast. oh, and a stinger. crap. a stinger. just imagine. ok your getting there...

Its about this time that one of the little monster bees gets inside his veil and starts crawling across his face while buzzing and taunting his victim. The bee knows hes got him now... somehow , he achived the impossible! He crawled thru a bee proff veil.  Its about this time the man begins to run very fast... while trying to mash the bee in his gloved hand thru the mesh in the veil before he gets an eye permantly put out by young Frankenstein. As he does this he runs about 3 times around the house of the homeowner while they watch in horror and semi entertainment at the big picture window of the house. They may have a camera.  Then as he knocks his glasses off , and his cap , he keeps running as they bounce around inside the veil. zing! stung on the nose. The cows come running up, because they just know the howling noise this bee keeper is making means they are going to be fed. Finally he stops running. He cannot wipe his nose. or his tears. He may of peed. just saying.  Hes bent over sucking air, but is afraid to open his mouth. He may pass out. He could die. hundreds of other bees have followed him, and still pummel his "bee proof" suit.

The brave knight bee fighter returns to the hives. His noise stings. His ear stings. He is not sure what else stings. He thinks he avoided peeing his suit. He is not sure. But he wavers not. He gets on the tractor. He is saving the world dang it. He is making the plants all good. Probably saving thousands of lives by saving these poor bees that are so helpless. the tractor idea works. He moves them. millions of bees move with him.

Afterward, he retreats to the shop building, and waits til dark as the minion bees await to kill him but cannot survive the cooler darknees. Later in safety, he doctors himself.

I better get some honey out of this deal! and no....NO pictures. and there better not be a video of this anywhere!

the killer bees from hell.

Well I decided to check the new hives I got two weeks ago. you know..to see how the are adapting. Now I have had 3 hives for a year now, and they are doing just fine. Sometimes I just go out there, and watch them fly off...to see what direction they are going. Or watch one of the girls toss something out of the hive, like a dead drone (male) or some other bug. Its quite interesting to watch them do their bee thing. So I went out to the farm, and suited up. Just for extra precaution I lit up the ol smoker, and got it puffing good. I had my pretty assistant (wife) suited up too... her job..was to keep the smoker lit and puffing.

I kinda noticed things were a tad different, when I got to the hives and the buzzing noise seem to get a bit louder. no problem.. I myself took the smoker in hand and puffed around the lids and entrances, then handed if off to pop the top off. I reminded assistant to puff the smoker. and then all kinds of bee hell flew out and it rained bees for the next hour solid. I kept feeling these little bee taps all over my suit.... and finally I couldn't see very well out of my veil...as the mutant ninja bees from ..somewhere were covering my veil.

The little stinkers managed to sting me once thru my suit, so I closed em up...they were having no bee problems...except they couldn't eat the human in the white suit...and I walked back to the shop to de-suit... but they followed me.  in fact, they followed me everywhere. heck I had to climb on a 4 wheeler and drive 1/2 a mile to evade the little suckers. On the other hand, Im told they will make a lot more honey then the more tame bees.  Now I will have to move them far far away from the house and shop, so no more innocent victims get tagged by the stupid killer bees. Im gonna paint a skull and cross bones on their homes for sure.

blog like a ninha. ninja!

Its spring! well nearly. close enough. I ll be getting my bee vac out soon... and hope to catch me some swarms! If yall see some, call me...and Ill come suckem up. Hopefully I have learned enough in the past year to keep them happier..and they'll stay at home. Ive learned a lot. Im goin to put in a bee bar, a waggle dance frame, and have the pollen police in case it gets really wild... Im SURE they will stay home after I catch them this year!

But the upcoming week I just took off, is not looking so promising today! MORE rain. at t his rate my bees will not make the honey I want them to! It is the weekend fast approaching, and im ready to burn some calories! I don't guess itll be from wrestling with the roto tiller in the future garden..as it is mud!  But Im sneaking up on that.im eyeballin one of those tractor tillers! Boy wont my garden grow so much better with one of those suckers!?

Im sitting here with my remote control gas fireplace burning...man that was a sweet Christmas gift I bought her.... and listening to the rain pitter patter outside. Funny how 68 deg is colder when I can hear it rain, and the fire place just comes on...If it were sunny outside...the fire wouldn't even think about coming on, and Id be sweating outside doing some kind of honeydo thing.

My mind is on honey and bees! and rain! Surely MY bees can fly and gather stuff in the rain. After all they are ninja bees. its a little known species... they are black and have secrets. like ninjas. Like how to fly in the rain. Im counting on getting me some honey this year...and hopefully some of yall too... so this gaggle of bees...umm.. herd of bees....ok bunch of bees better do this right!

Pretty soon im gonna have this photo insertion thing down, and Im gonna move on with how to put a video in my blog...dang. Ill be famous then. be on a talk show...have pizzeria taking my picture, heck Ill probably be on a commercial or something. After I get the blog how tos done....then I can start the real blog. I can blog like a ninha too. I mean a ninja. I wonder if there are secrets of the ninha too? hmm. ok im a tad bored with the rest of this day off. probably shoulda stayed at work. whos bright idea was this.... it wasn't raining when I took off. maybe I can reach the remote......

Lets just all shutup and watch the sunset.

Ive heard a lot lately about the problems of the world, illegal immigrants, and how women should be able to kill their unborn babies if they want to... Ive heard a lot about how a lot of people think they deserve free health care and free this or that. I cant blame a person for wanting free this or that... but who can get everything for free ? I got a free t shirt once. You can wear that. As for the rest, I think you should just go get a job.

Im thinkin you can join me for a cup of coffee while we watch the sun set, and we can talk about whatever you want, as long as we respect each other. I didn't say agree with each other. I swear as long as I live, I don't understand how some people can think that its ok to wear pants around their knees, and that we should just feed the whole freaking world whether its legal or not, with the tax money received from working citizens. Sometimes I think if we were all monkeys, some of us, would want to ....well nevermind. But just because I don't understand  you , it doesn't mean I should be angry with you... or think your stupid. Your just a dumbass.  you poor slob. no okok...your just right in your world..and very wrong in mine. now this is where we take a sip of something..coffee...and shut up. I think it was Will Rogers who said..."never miss an opportunity to...shut up".

Oh that sunset. aint it pretty.

so theres not much that I can do to save this ol world....Im thinkin its doomed anyway. But I can throw my 2 cents out there for what its worth...ahemm.... (2 cents in case you wondered) and then relax. just chill. It don't matter anyway.....I believe the world has its destiny, and Im here for a limited time.

So maybe we could all be President for a year and take say....10 vacations...with our familes... and.. no wait. wrong blog. not my circus. not my monkeys. ok for some reason Ive got monkeys on the brain here.

Some people are hurting... they are truly having a crisis, and they are hurting. The problems of this political race pale in comparison to the real problems that real people are having today. I hope real Love doesn't disappear ...I hope Im doing my part to "let my light be seen",... where IS that peaceful sunset. Is it time yet Lord?

Get the storm cellar ready!

Good morning world...
Its been a very wet rainy gray couple of days. Im looking forward to some sunshine, and birds chirping, and working with my bees, and doing some things I love to do. Things that bring me peace. I don't get why people expect me to live a certain way, when that way doesn't bring much peace. Everyone seems to want me to work until I die... and I like work, but Id rather do the work that brings me joy. That work is on my farm in the country. My little 65 acres. I remember being so unhappy out there... because I was so lonesome. It can be a very desolate place! But when you have someone to share things with, it can be just perfect. For me anyway...But in life... there are always things that interrupt the joy and peace of country life. Like storm season.

I never had a storm cellar before.... I cant see the tornado from down there! But I have one now... Its time to clean out the cellar and have it ready to use...otherwise youll be sharing it with a black widow and have webs in your hair.

Im not sure why God allows storms to be present in the world. We don't really need them. Its just a sign of more chaos to me....But here they are, and I guess we deal with them. just like we deal with the other chaos in our lives.  We try to prepare, have a plan, and re focus on the peace. Thank you Lord for I know all peace comes ultimately from you! Maybe if we had peace all the time , we wouldn't know it was peace.... maybe we wouldn't have anything to compare it to.

Lets live this day, and talk to God on and off all day long. Keeping in touch helps me to stay focused. Lets put today in a head lock and take it down!

photos, memories, and plans for today.

Sometimes you come home and find your 25ft carport on top of your barn. Things seem to just force you to change ...ugh. I hate it when that happens. I guess Im such a creature of change. Ok ive just now discovered this "Picasso of web albums" feature on this blog site. heck Ive never seen it before and have no idea how these pics even got here. lol. wonder how I get more new ones in it? This pic is old, from back when...you guessed it.... the old carport blew away. I remember this well... I came home from a trip, and my daughter was house watching.... and I looked out the back window and saw this. I asked..."katy... did you see anything ummm unsual out back...by the barn? she said noo.... and looked. and still said...nooooo... whats different? UMMMM....the carport is on top of the barn??? She looked and said....ohhhh... is that new? it wasn't always like that?". I swear. Shes much smarter now.i swear it. she is.

Lots of things have happened since I left the farm. Yes I left it. Yes I did. I know its hard to believe. But I had to. I left for a time soon to return. I hope. Lots of changes...many were good. I got married! yep. for 2 years now. Ive about countrytized her and will tow her back to the farm in a year or so. Until this, this daughter that was so young when this happened has married, and now lives HERE on my farm! whod of thought? Thank God she married a country fella. and now Im a Grampa!! oh yeah. a Sexy grampa. thought I needed to throw that in there.

im not sure I have any funny stories or wisdom here... seems when I get ready to say something funny I forget it by the time I get on here. really I need to get on more often. So since Im missing my country life, ill reminisce (spelling) about it...the good stuff.... being trapped on the 8 ft ladder top step by the barn when my overalls came down around me and over the ladder... being trapped in a hay ring with a 200 lb calf stuck in the ring, and mad mama wanting to kill me, driving an old hay truck and discovering its on FIRE..., my nightly walks under the stars talking to God finding MY start... roto tilling thru the garden while the big sprinkler was on... barefooted... and the girls drove up with friends... I had a strawhat and shorts on. yeee hawww. Seeing sunsets galore, baby calves, wind blowing so hard I saw my chain fly by, wild life like deer and turkey.. theres more I am sure...but not enough room to type.! and the not so good stuff.... like. being ALONE day in and day out. My dog dying. Death in general...of my cattle, of animals. of relationships. of dreams. the WIND.....did I mention that? Wishing and just....well something inside of me....yearning...to share this with someone special....and the weather ...just a hardness to it... Both sides of this coin are good, yet bad at the same time.

Ill have to find out more about how to get pictures onto this site so I can visually aid my stories. Lord knows they need help. I just have to find out how to get pics from my phone wehre I take them, to this computer easily. I guess Ill send them to email and then copy them here. I guess. maybe Ill investigate this icloud google thing that stores photos. IF there is a phantom reader out there that can insert some wisdom here...feel free to add !! Im floundering here! help a brother out!

ok so today, im sneaking up on a shower, as the WIFE...is out of town shopping with her daughter and a friend in texas... after that...(ive had my one cup of coffee) Ill  go check on kathi and pull some bushes up for her with the truck and a chain, and then ill check the weather, and if its warm enough, Ill come back, and get into my bee suit, and medicate the bee hives for mites for the spring.

yay me.

Notice life, accept life, Trust God, and Love.

Well so much has happened... but Ill leave the details in my online diary. I have noticed this year that I am more concerned with the way my country is turning out, than I am the every day little things. Seems such a shame that my children could not grow up the way I did, and my grandchildren will not have a clue of how it was either. I guess I could say the same of my grandfathers time too though. Im sure nothing was the same as it was when he was a kid either.

Ive been busy ...always busy. Maybe busy is good.. but sometimes I think Im busy with the wrong things. So what will be the sum of my life? a lot of busyness? Is it what your remembered by? or what you accomplish? Does anything really last? I see the really old tombstones... and wonder what they did in their lives. I see buildings named after important people.... being renamed.... after someone else now! I think time....forgets everyone eventually.

So what does one do then? sigh. I think the simple things are it for me. I understand them. I understand that simple wont last either, but at least I can get it, and maybe some of those around me will too. Doing the right thing.... being Godly... Im not sure Ill be remembered as Godly. I have so many things wrong with me. But I  do hope that some will remember me that way, and most importantly that God sees my heart, and knows it to be true to Him.

Funny how a beginning of a project can look so different from a finished project. Ill try to insert a pic of the finished one in here somewhere. I guess my life is that way. I hope it gets completed before I go to the next life. maybe its like a video game, and Ill get extra points. God knows Ill  need them.

My married life is getting a tad easier. She no longer wakes me up tying me to the mattress with rope. that has to be an improvement right? I could pretend that was some kind of kinky sex thing she likes to do with me, but its hard to ignore the lighter, and gasoline can nearby. But hey, she does let me know she needs me. she says "go warm my car up", and "the dishes need to be put up". soo....

well im gonna be a grandpa soon. I look in the mirror as that old sexy bearded gray headed man who can no longer tie his boots without making noise, and think.... grandpa! Im way to sexy for that. but I will embrace it with all my heart.

The world changed around me. did I expect anything else. I see people aging and think... my my... they should look younger...then I see a reflection of me, and I don't recognize myself. lol. The world just keeps changing...and I keep agin. Many of my old friends are already dead. I hope I can get moved back to the country, with my little wife, and be able to enjoy life for a few good years...before I move on.

notice., accept, Trust God, and love those around me. Finish what I start.

ill try to peek in here more often. If I don't see "yall" again..... then I will see you someday, on the other side. I hope its the side with the pearly gates....for  your sakes.

update. found my way back!

wow. I haven't been on here in so long, I about forgot how to log on this thing. But I think I am here! So many things have happened since I last logged on. I will have to look at the last post and see where I left off? !  After being married now for 2 years.. and living in another place.... my world has changed. Ironic that the name of my writings is...The World of Sundance. ha.

Sometimes marriage is good...sometimes it is not so good. But no matter what happens... I still miss the country, and my old place. I have not sold it... my daughter now rents it and lives there. And Im going to be a grampa!! she is due in February!! yay!  The wife and I go out there when we can.. and I make sure to catch a sunset when I can. I am praying somehow sometime, that God will show me the way back...no show US the way back... Id love to lead my small family to a world of peace and good memories. I am not sure how much she realizes how chaotic life is... living here.

maybe I can figure out how to get a pic on here..when all my pics are on my phone anymore. hmmm.

ok this pic is NOT from this year...but I added it because it has a mysterious snow flake snow falling kind of thing going on here. Wonder where the crap that came from? Very interesting... apparently I am out of the loop....with this hi tech stuff.

I still have a dozen or so cows, and I hope to add to that number. Dear God... p lease return me to the country..as it is in my blood... and my heart misses it....but let me bring the bride you gave me there too...toshare it as I have always wanted to do. This is the thing that aches my heart the most now.  I guess I better go now... and see what the heck I was writing about the last time I was on here.

oh btw, this pic is when I lost ALL the mimosa trees in the back yard... about 4 or so years ago.  Im guessing. maybe I can write soon about the way my life has changed since being married.

test/ update

ok this is just a test to see if Im doing this right. had some trouble logging on as its been while since I blogged... things are going well at home... what a transition. I would think that in order for someone that's been single for years....to be able to get remarried... they should have to take an in depth class about what they are looking at! ugh! things are alittle smoother now though...

Well it seems I learned a lesson this last week. a tree is way bigger on the ground afte ryou cut it down, then it is when its standing up. ha. was supposed to have a yard sale ...last Saturday...but on Tuesday a guy appeared that I had talked to...and cut the tree down while I was at work. no biggie.  except it was so wet.... I loaded the first load of brush...which took up the entire yard... on the trailer ..which had a flat. then I decided to burn the brush. so I made a spot....and started burning smallish..... I did well. I burned all day and into the night... I was so tired. Im still not done after burning all weekend every spare moment! geesh. Ill burn some more tonight I guess If I have the energy. Its hard to sleep well, when you've been sleeping in the dog house for a week. yard sale cancelled. I have this week to get it ALL done...as its now on this upcoming Saturday! yee haw.

Had a baby calf...and finally got a bull leased and delivered. That took some pulling strings, to do w/o taking off work here. But I got it done...so all the ladies should be very happy about this.. will have the lover boy until end of sept. they should all be knocked up proper by then!

Bees are doing ok I think. its about time to check on them. But I just have not had the time to checkem. hope they are happy...they seem to be buzzing around the place. I have one hive at the ranch...and 2 at t he house.

I better get to work here... hpe this works.

Trusting is an action word.

Hello peeps. if there was ever anyone out there. Today is bright and sunny and a high of 91 deg. gonna be warmish. things here are about back to some kind of normalcy. I just made that word up... im good like that. One kid is in Europe visiting Germany, etc... and the other wont leave the house. sometimes I wonder if they are sisters.

still have the same job... and plugging along. Just got over a little surprise surgery...seems my appendex wanted out.  And can you believe it didn't even weigh an oz?? youd think after all that, I would have lost like....5 lbs? but no..

Did the reunion thing...lake thing. how stressful! geesh. remind me NOT to do that again next year.

Right when you think things are stable.....things blow up it seems. Im glad there is one stable thing in my life that does not change. Im glad He loves me no matter what... He sure made me some pretty clouds to look at today.

the honeybees are doing ok as far as I know. Im hoping to look into the hive on the weekend. if possible.

Ill catch all yall later.... I need to settle down, and accept what is coming... after all, it is His plan. Sounds easy don't it? Trust.... well. its something you must display...through your thoughts, attitudes, and actions. If your fretting....worried....upset..... then your not trusting. What will be will be. His plan. put my best foot forward...trip, stumble...get up.... and know He wanted me to fall in that direction. Cuz He knows me. others would just walk that way, but not me. I fall that way. graceful I am.

later invisible peeps.

wedding suck.... so do luke warm friends....

the life in a small town cop.... aging...at 53 yrs of age....trying to stay fit.... getting all the regular things done that you need to get done. Then you get a stomach ache which turns into the removal of your appendix.... then  you come back to work...and   get a call that you need to go look for a local hoodlum....as there is a warrant in a neighboring county, and they want him. Couldn't have a quiet day. no ...no.... gotta do this while were recovering from some stupid surgery.  So then theres the go to the ol ladies house and plug up the wheelchair ...cuz shes stranded in her wheely deely chair with a dead battery....in the middle of her living room... and then theres the dog complaint..... when I get there, theres 10 little white puppies running around yipping at whatever puppies yip at... just one thing after antoher. Now on ANY other day, you can sit here in the car and watch paint dry. No a speeder, not a dog loose, not a single call. But not after surgery....no sir ree...

So anyway, theres court today... we can see how many people wanna fight their ticket. yee yaw.

NOw lets talk about weddings. omg... such a pain in the ass. NO body wants to help the mother of the bride out.... oh they say we will help...but where are they when its time to clean out the cabin? or prepare a wedding album? or do a hundred other things? Where are they at photo time? can they even run an errand for you while you take off work and spend the whole day trying to make this a good memorable wedding experience? no way.... they are so full of shit... and good wishes. I say shit and good wishes can grow any garden.... but doesn't do much for a friendship. If these are the kinds of friends that we have....who needs enemies? At least I know my enemies are not going to do anything for me..... they'll tell me up front....

So you cant count on anyone.... except God and yourself. And God takes His sweet time. Seems His time is perfect or something like that....so I wont go there.

Ive got lots of other things to vent and talk about....but Im trying to go easy and not run off all the invisible fans and readers that are out there lappin  up every word I type on this stupid half size screen. So Ill halt right there.

so remember...even though... the world sucks, you cant count on anyone....and no one cares about you or your wellbeing..... "you are special, you are loved....." uh huh.

Now about the time I get ready to end this rant....and go back to work, itll start raining.

oh crappy day...

ugh. its been a rough week. and its only Tuesday. I maybe worked too hard on the weekend. I think I need some play time. I am not a happy camper today..so Ill be brief. The day didn't end well yesterday, and didn't start well this morning... the car overheated.... and its hard to give a citation with no car. I can run along the roadway and yell sounds like a siren...but most likely, the men in white jackets will be called, and Ill just get too hot.

so im done and so is my attitude for the day. And anyone that smiles at me may get bitch slapped.

trust and jobs.

hello invisible peepers. I see I remain a mystery.... good.

times have been good but very tiring and very exhausting. I tell ya...this getting older bit...sucks. and not in a good way. I used to work all day and be able to do it the next day with no problem...but now im so sore I can hardly get my shoes tied, or my boots on. aleeve and "old people cream" are my best friends....IF I can get it on.... good thing I have a wife that will put it on me... she needs some now and then too.

weddings. ugh. My household is stressed to the max. this stepdaughter gets married soon. This month.. and her soon to be hubby quit his job... ugh. didn't like the way the boss talked to him. Seems he thinks someone is going to bail him out or something. I have no idea. but I hope he gets a soft spoken boss in the future... so he will stay at work.

anyway... times come and go. I hope the things tha tbother me now will be taken care of, and my mind set at ease. I guess I just have to =trust God that it will be.  Im getting tired of this job... myself. But Ill not quit until I find another one.

I have not much else to say. Im exhausted and tired....and the week is just starting. seems these weekends are worse than the work week. maybe I can actually rest up on the job to prep for the upcoming weekend. ha.

Let peace and harmony, rest and a revival of mind body and spirit enter within immediately! thank you LORD!                  

easter weekend. perfect.

happy easter invisible people. this is Monday. another early day. get up at 5. at work by six. showered shave and in uniform. thankful for my bride to make me breakfast or I wouldn't get any.

we did easter egg hunts, took pictures, ate easter luncheon...that me and my bride made. we have a vitamix that we are experimenting with.

it was a nice weekend.... weather was just perfect. I got to see both girls...which was special.

im sleepy and drug out. it was a hard tiring weekend. burned abit of wood in the "clay pot".. as I call it. I didn't get to mow the yard, and it was a nice gentle rain. Im guessing itll be ready to mow before sat ...my next day off.

ok falling asleep here...gotta get some coffee. I saw too many easter rabbits, and not enough open jesus tombs.... I got kisses and hugs...from the ones I love... I saw children having fun. I thanked God for breathing... which is more than I could say a few years ago. All in all it was a good weekend. the redbuds are blooming... I saw a cardinal. perfect.

the good turns in life...finally.

good morning world. its been a good week. eventful. from dead bodies to car accidents, to first aid, to traffic tickets... to the ups and downs of married life, to parents aging, in the hospital, and on and on. At least it was not a boring week. I have a new lawn mower! yeah. And I have a new genuine black in color VITAMIX! oh yeah. now im gonna be so freaking healthy. yes I am.

I better do something ..Im about to bust out of these breetches im wearing...

ive been delinquent in writing here lately. the weather is warming up... and getting nicer. were getting some rain, and things are blooming. I guess its spring. finally. who d of thought it would ever arrive.? whew. it was a long winter. I have got to get back to the farm to see what the kids have done.. lol. one can never tell. I know they are mowing the yard, cuz I saw it on fb. ha..

I don't feel very funny...this am. just tired. I could use another cup of coffee. lol. so Ill say God is good, Life is good... its been a good week in general... with a few challenging days. yesterday was good. IT started out well, and ended well. what more can you ask? yay me. yay us. Im thankful for my wife.... with all her quirks and stubbornness, I love her....and I remember how empty my life seemed before her. Although my lifestyle, and my daily doings, have changed completely... I have to say, things are good. things are very good.

Now I am trying a few "doors" to see if they open. Lets see what God will do next! jerimiah 33:3 !! hang on for the ride!! lets make a few good turns in life!

Peace unto you!