experiment.

so.... using the NEW blog look here... and everything is different... but maybe I have the setting where the "invisible" people can comment now.... huh jenner? are you still invisible?

my silly chickens are doing stupid things... like NO eggs.... and doubling up in a box.... they've never done that before... but they've lost poor Duke... their rooster.... so maybe they are insecure chickens now.  anyway... this is just an experimental  post to see how this new look works...  yay me. 

sometimes you cant go forward and you cant go backward... your just stuck.  don't be stubborn, just go. Or get stuck like this..

the other day I went to count cows and I couldn't find any. I thought..hmmm… this could be aproblem.. but I found then on the far side of the property. they  never go there... so I wondered what was up? I counted 4 more than I was supposed to have... and discovered 3 young bulls and one new calf I didn't know I was going to have....  the  young bulls have returned.... but I need to do some fencing!  if I can figure out how to get the calf pic from phone to here...Ill be back in business again~!

hope to post more soon...

my long learning curve.

oh man. I stayed up too late. im sitting here trying to be conscious... sucking coffee.  Watching wife get ready for work...  it was a good weekend. I learned a few things... did you know an armadillo can jump 4 ft in the air and run your ass over AFTER being shot? yep. Remember that when you go outside in the dark at night, in boots and boxers . There were not one but TWO of them! Maybe I can have one flower left now...upright. Also... I decided to practice my welding skills abit… and learned you cannot lean up against the metal building, and weld on the pipe fence that adjoins it. I bout peed my pants. I only did that once. I sure wish my momma hadn't of taken me out of FFA when I was in highschool, or Id of known that! It seems my learning curve is long..and Im sure I saw no passing zones on it....so Ill get there when I get there..

Today, is a new day. cloudy. It rained good two days ago. Things are still kinda muddy. Gotta put on the mud boots to check the squash.  I heard 107 cough, and seemed to pant just alittle… Ill check her today in a minute. I cant lose another one ! Im on it!

Sometimes I think maybe my "common sense" is not good sense.... or maybe I just speak a foreign language ...and Im not understood... I try to evaluate my perceptions, to see if its just me, or maybe I think Im presenting myself well, but really im not. Ive decided I am, and the rest of the world is dogshit crazy. So  now that I worked that out...Im good.

The grass is transitioning.... from dead rye to burmuda...Im trying to see if its growing faster than the cows are eating it!  I got  nothing special today to say... just my usual wisdom. ha. so Ill sign off and give this some kind of title and post it.

a country gal made.

This woman.... so many things I could say here. lol. When I started dating her, she was quick to tell me she was not looking to get married again, and her very strong personality made it quite clear. But I just figured that maybe she didn't know just what she wanted, until God told her, and in time, maybe shed figure it out. She did. Now she was such a prissy girl.. lol. I told her Id make a country girl out of her...and when she snorted..... I knew I was right. This day she decided to hand feed some of her "girls", behind the protection of a fence. Wise choice.  I think she finally IS a country gal... Yes she will scalp me for sure if she finds this! But Im pretty dang safe I think...since all you invisible mystery fans will not be around to snitch me off. ha.

Life is good just now. I know itll change... but all in all, its good. I have reasonably good health, my family does too...I see grandkids.... I see so much. From beautiful skies, to baby calves, to my grandkids.... and so much in between. Im thankful. It wasn't that long ago, when this little farm, this little piece of heaven, was my jail. Alone, and very unhappy, I made some bad choices. But God protected me from myself, for the most part, and here I am.

I have such a different life now. Its hard to imagine that your life will be soooo different in the near future, that you would hardly recognize it!! You just couldn't see it. Like I told a very near and dear love in my life, "its like going around a corner....and being in a different world".  Life is like that. I know it may not be something you believe, but that doesn't change the facts. It just delays them. Maybe forever. So be careful what you choose to believe.... as that is all God requires.... to expect it.. when you ask for it. Yes you may have to get up off your duff and actually do something. Don't whine about it. Stop your pity party. You've rode that ol horse long enough haven't you? I know I like to ride mine plum to death! Its quite a realization when I finally see Ive been riding a dead horse, and not going anywhere now for how long?? So get up, and do what you need to get up and do. Life will just be this way until you die, then maybe Heaven will have a genie in abottle to get you what you want with no effort. lol. Surely theres someone that will read this and know Im talking to them.! Maybe more than one? lol. what am I thinking? you people are invisible!! what about you jenner?

Ive decided that the satisfaction is not just looking at what Ive done. Or a feeling. Theres so much more to living. Ive decided that the real fun ….is ...drumroll..... getting there. I know I know... your rolling your eyes at me. But each day I get up, and I have certain specific tasks I assigned myself. Kind of like a work order..And I enjoy actually doing the task. Sometimes its not very fun to do... but its fun getting it done. I try not to be so single minded (that's narrow minded for you slower folks) that I cant see or enjoy the doing of it... Anyone can sit back and see a job well done, and enjoy that. But the real key to life is enjoying every minute of it. Theres enough chaos in our world to focus on. I just choose not to.  The focus is the same as it ever was.....on all the good things. Sunsets, babies, a good burmuda lawn, lol., and the work it took to get it done. 

ok ive blobbled enough today. I was only going to write a short paragraph. I guess I should summarize by saying...Don't short yourself. Life can be VERY different, if youll just do what God wants you to do, and just do it. Then enjoy. If you find your not enjoying..... then theres something undone. You get to choose to live and die this way.... or "getter done". It all starts with prayer.

I saw my star last night. If you find the big dipper, and follow the handle to the end, and then just over, and a tad down, youll see a star that's brighter than the others around it. That's my star.  Look at it....and think of what Ive said. Think of what is around the corner. or could be. 

that's all I have today...don't step in any cow piles. It wont keep you from where your going, it just slows you down a bit.

goodbye to Bandit.

well it was a hard day today. My favorite calf, about 2 months old, caught pneumonia and died. I didn't even catch that he was sick! I check them daily, but when I realized he was sick, it was at night, and he was dead by the morning.  ugh. Not all days in the country are good days....sigh. Ill miss little "Bandit".

your momma cries for you. Im sorry I didn't do a better job. God put you in my hands, and I just failed. But I promise I will learn from it....and try not to let it repeat itself...

It was a hot day, but the humidity was only about 56%! So that was good. I think I have most everything watered, but I need to add 2 fruit trees to the watering system. I still have the north upper side of the house to put new siding on and repaint, but of course I want to wait unitl its so hot I stroke out on the ladder due to the heat. Its just my way. 

its past 10 pm..."do you know where your children are"? If you know that phrase your older than dirt... I was gonna say shit, but Im cleaning up my vocabulary. so your old. 

tonight I caught the son in law, sneaking up to give his calf a shot...so I said...lets give em all shots. lol. busted! we got 4 bull calves banded, and vaccinated, and one heifer calf vac'd. ok that's vaccinated, not vacuumed. That would be a visual...."umm.. hoover or eureka"?

ok Im tired and getting goofier by the second...so I will call it a day. Im on my 3rd grape water. man I cant get away from these flavored water thingys. If anyone told me Id EVER buy bottled water to drink, when I have a tap Id call him crazy. Not saying how much MORE flavored cost than just plain water....ugh. 

just a few more bull calves to catch up... and poof. Ill be done and waiting for them to make 500 lbs to take to market.... 

good night invisible people that don't read my stuff. 

typical morning in the country.

good morning ….like im actually saying that to somebody. lol. I woke up today with yet another heifer in my front yard. Im not sure Ive ever seen so many cows out galavantin around up and down the dirt road in front of my house. The neighbors say nope...not theirs... they've "fixed" all their fences, but that must be "ol kens"... or fill in the blank with some farmers....This one insists on visiting with another neighbors cows over his fence. Whats left of my garden has survived floods, high winds, and hail....more than once... but Im not sure it will survive a stampede from "unknown" cows. I tried to get her up in my pen, but she wasn't havin it..so….. I let the chickens out..and im watching out for the stray cur dog that murdered ol "Duke" the rooster... im sure all the girls miss him, but at least their backs will heal up some.

its trying to be summertime now....made 94 deg yesterday. Ive been workin on the yard, and have declared war on some kind of mutant alien grass that's takin over.... the roundup hit it pretty hard... Ill keep up the good work until its on the retreat or dead. I welded (if you can call it welding) on the stretchin posts. I waited long enough until I decided the son in law aint gonna show up and magically do it... note to self: do not use welding glasses. Theyre really cool, but they don't protect your face.. only your eyes... so if your welding more than 20 minutes....then just get a helmet. speaking of which, I just got a new fangled one... I look like an astronaut....I may not can weld well, but I look really cool trying. My first attempt on the first end of pipe, looked like a blind guy got drunk and decided to build a fence. I cut the pipe too short, and put the cut out piece back in the gap and welded up around it. lol. I better not do that again...

Im planning my day here....I cant stand sitting around and watching tv ….

don't make fun of my yard... im still in battle with much of it. I love that view though... If God will allow me, Ill live here many years in peace with NO one buying the property across from me! lol. Unless He gives ME money to own it.....

well... the words are not flowin like they used to... so I guess Ill stop wasting our time.. lol. like someone is with me... okok my time.... Im gonna finish the cup of coffee, and listen to rich play the songs on flashback Friday on the radio!  Yall be calm, and careful....and remember to read your bible. Brings a kind of peace....it goes well with coffee too. js.  later yall.