waiting on whats next...a whole new perspective....

You ever notice that no matter what bad stuff happens... there is always something good in there somewhere...if you look hard enough. or maybe lookin hard is not the right wording... maybe looking with a different perspective..  I practice by watching clouds. sometimes  cloud is just a cloud.  but i fyou wait a few minutes... it becomes something. an elephant. man theres a lot of cloud elephants. ever notice that?  you never see.....say...a skunk cloud... or ... a train cloud.... but boy those elephants are big floaters. then if you keep waiting... eventually the sun will set. sometimes these are boring.. but sometimes, man sometimes they turn those elephants in to something else!

and so...

you watch... and you wait.... the path ahead is scattered with roses....? or...with the thorns of roses? I guess its with what perspective you see it...as to which you see first.  Sometimes it is winter. and the cold cold cold seems to never go away. first thing I do in the morning... put on some sweats... im cold. house shoes..im cold. start a fire. its cold. snow. ice. gray gray gray. and then...poof. youve waited... and the results are... you now see something different because it is different. now its hot. turn on the AC.  blooms...colors...mow the grass. sweat. I wonder....if when it was winter, if I could change my perspective, and make it summer.... and feel hot... instead of cold. if I can do that, ill make it hawaii here every day...and ill toss in some naked women, and be content in whateve rstate I am in. cuz ill just bring em with me. yeah

so this time thing.... waiting... scriptures say to wait...and not to worry or fret. Trust ...it says. and it will come to pass. The universe seems to find a way to do this... or maybe God just does it.. i dont know. But i do think He has something to do with it all. Then this time thing passes.....and poof... so do we.. In to the next dimension...then next life.... whatever you want to call it.

I think I am enjoying my life more now. all I did was wait... and start trying to achieve and do and go. .. but from right here. alone. just me. no bed of nails anymore tumbleweed. its a better thing now. Im starting to like it. like a breath of fresh  air... like something new is about to start. I like it.

now lets soak up the peace and joy.

the mood has left...

the wind is blowing here... just like it always does... and the blue sky shimmers through heat waves. Its in the upper 90s today here... and stella is laying asleep at my feet. shes a good dog. I am glad there is something ..that breathes air, that is close by, that at least seems to understand my world. I keep the tv on.... so I can hear the voices. I guess its good that the voices come from the tv and not my teeth. ha. It is so hot, that I have not been very productive...but I have a long list of things I should do. All of which cost me a pretty penny.

i didnt sleep much last night. to many M&ms I guess. so its a slow day today. this evening Ill find soem projects to do. im not sure what to blog about anymore. I guess this may be the last blog. I dont konw. seems the mood to blog has left me.